What If

To know, is to regard something as true beyond doubt. Depending on the day I know too much and by the end of the night I realize I know too little. I carelessly question things I should know the answer to and I endlessly ponder things I am never going to figure out. I cannot change the things that are now apart of the past and I cannot predict what is to come next. Life happens because it is meant to be lived, this I know is true. Dreaming occurs while your asleep, but while your awake is when those dreams become reality...this I also know to be true. Sometimes when it's sunny it feels cold and in most cases the grass really isn't greener on the other side. Have you noticed that when you over sleep you wake up even more exhausted than before? It's kind of like when you pop in an old VHS and press fast forward instead of rewind so by the time you actually rewind it you don't want to watch it anymore. I think that cookies taste better before they are baked but you might think this statement is false. I know that such things like fact and fiction exist, but I think the unreal and imaginary is far more interesting to believe in. Belief does not always come from truth and the certainty of it is not proven. It comes from within, something that speaks to your heart or produces excitement in your soul. Disneyland is a real place and Tinkerbell can fly, I have seen it. I have never been to Neverland or seen the mermaid lagoon but somewhere it must be real. To disregard reality for what it is would be foolish yes, to regard reality with hope will leave you hopeful. The imaginary is real and true have you stepped outside? Yes the sky is blue but at sunset it beats the imagination. I don't know what tomorrow brings, but that is a question within itself waiting for an answer. Goodnight...sweet dreams. Niki

the year is new.

Moving forward doesn't mean to forget but rather embrace the excitement that comes from something new. The unknown can be scary or seem to be deceiving, but take heart and know that good things come with time. Love is patient, love is kind, often heard and hard to follow. The possibilities of not knowing what comes next or how to figure it out can be frightening leaving you with a little less faith than you had before. But don't be so scared, yes it is natural to shy away from what you don't quite know but sometimes what you don't know could turn out to be the greatest ending to your very own story. Sometimes we don't see what's right in front us because in actuality we aren't even looking, but by chance it flashes by just in time to be noticed. It causes you to wonder, to think about new and intriguing things that tug at your heart strings or make you take an extra breath because something just took your breath away. A tiny moment could change your story that you thought you already knew the ending to. Be taken by surprise, be open to the things that make you question why or why not. Let go and have peace with what you don't know, see where it takes you. Try to love people for who they are... not what you want them to be. Accept challenges and be humbled by defeat, victory is found through happiness. Share your story, there is always someone listening even if it appears your all alone. Life will be hard but bring it on because it will also be great. Make a wish to the new year and maybe it will come true just as you expected or maybe it won't. Maybe, just maybe your wish will turn out even better than you expected, leaving you speechless. Hope for the best and always laugh even if it makes you cry. To 2011, never lose heart and imagine the impossible to be true. I'll be seeing you, xoxo.